Remembering Nancy Kirby

Recently, after a two-year battle with cancer which she faced with uncommon grace, we lost a former colleague, Nancy Kirby, who taught journalism at North Central College for 20 years.  She stabilized what had been an up-and-down program, turning it into a consistent award-winner.  She helped me through a family tragedy and supported our work to help the poor and homeless.  Below are some thoughts which will appear in different forms in several places which have asked for my remembrances.

Two of my strongest memories of Nancy Kirby.

1)  For me the high point of Nancy Kirby’s work at the college was when she led 22 students in the production of a wonderful magazine called Naperville’s Neighbor, a project focused on Aurora, on service work done there by Cardinals in Action, Ministry and Service, Junior/Senior Scholars and the Pipeline to Urban Teaching, and especially Hesed House, Aurora’s main homeless shelter and food pantry, then—as now—being run by North Central College alum Ryan Dowd.

2) When my youngest son Bryan died in December 2006, Nancy Kirby and her daughter Megan brought us food made as part of a tradition of giving their family had carried on for years.  That was special enough, but I’ll always remember how deeply genuine and relaxed their visit was, and how truly comforted we felt.

These two memories came together when Rick and Desiree Guzman (my oldest son and his wife) started Bryan House as a living memorial to Bryan.  Bryan House (now part of a much bigger program called Emmanuel House, after Bryan’s middle name) works on housing and poverty issues for refugees and the working class poor.  Nancy’s abiding interest in issues of homelessness, hunger and poverty drove the creation of the magazine project, and caused her to be a great support to our family’s new foundation.  In fact, after she left the college and returned to writing, one of her first big freelance pieces was “Seeds of Change,” about my family’s long involvement in homeless issues, and about how me taking Rick to Hesed House as a young child planted the seeds which grew, in the midst of tragedy, into Bryan House and Emmanuel House.*

If this remembrance seems a little tangled, it’s because my memory of Nancy, her writing, her passion for service will forever be entwined with our memories of Bryan and our attempts to honor his life through serving in ways we know Nancy pursued with such purpose.  She left me such a legacy.

* You can read “Seeds of Change” here.

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Sedona, the Movie: Vortexes, Auras! Oh, My!

Sedona, the MovieSedona, Arizona, is stunningly beautiful—“The most beautiful city in America,” USA Travel called it—but also beset by an often distracting New Age loopiness. “You know what?” a local psychic tells the frazzled main character in the movie Sedona, “You need an aura cleanse,” to which she screams, “Oh, for God’s sake! I’m in a real crisis here!” Sedona’s got crystals. Sedona’s got more vortexes—spots where earth and cosmic energies supposedly align—than Machu Pichu and the Great Pyramids combined. But beyond all these, what perhaps captures the city’s power most succinctly is the sentence, “There are no coincidences in Sedona.” I know. I live there a few weeks every year, and if I don’t hear the sentence at least once a day, its sentiment pervades the place like air.

What’s got the main character, Tammy, so frazzled is that she—a high-powered, work-obssessed business woman—is rushing down to a meeting in Phoenix when a freak accident strands her in Sedona. The movie opens with gorgeous views of Sedona’s iconic red rocks, canyons, and valleys shot from one of the many tourist planes that—with helicopters and balloons—constantly criss-cross Sedona skies. The plane has engine problems and can’t get back to Airport Mesa, landing instead on the city’s main north-south drag, Highway 89A, and crashing into Tammy’s car. We follow her typically exasperating adventures trying to get the car fixed, adventures which bring her into contact with sometimes zany locals—one who not only massages but reads feet—all steering her away from her work and car-obsessed life into some deep, healing soul searching. It’s a labyrinthine quest featuring her walking through an actual Sedona labyrinth as she begins to mend the broken pieces of her present life by dealing with the brokenness and abandonment of her past life. Veteran actress Frances Fisher plays her beautifully.

There’s a second story line. A gay couple, Scott and Eddie, have taken their sons, Denny and Jeremy, on a Sedona vacation. Scott is also frazzled, work-obssessed. It’s hard to get him off his Blackberry, until Eddie shames him into leaving it their van, something Scott wishes he hadn’t done when youngest son Denny gets lost. One viewer commented astutely that the movie leaves out all Hispanics, a large presence in Sedona, but, though perhaps a bit forced, it does nod towards Sedona’s Native American heritage, bringing in actor Tatanka Means as the Native American park worker who helps track Denny down. Of course, he’s calm and wise, a blaring contrast to Scott.

These two story lines meet briefly near the movie’s beginning but go their separate ways immediately, so much so that we’re sometimes annoyed by their utter dislocation, the movie becoming rather jagged as it continually cuts back and forth between them. Eventually, the two stories do meet. In fact, they literally crash into each other when Tammy’s finally-fixed car plows into Scott’s van. As they exchange information, the movie begins to suggest an eerie, deep relationship between Tammy and Scott, a relationship that makes Tammy forget about ever getting to Phoenix. The suggestion is heavy, but wisely stays at that level.

That’s the trouble with the there-are-no-coincidences stance. When things work out too perfectly, when seemingly random events turn out to be eye-poppingly non-random after all, a movie, a book, any story-telling vehicle, has to handle this very carefully or discerning viewers will just throw up their hands and scream, “Awwww!!!” They’ll feel cheated—though, of course, most people won’t, which is why sappiness or spectacular conspiracy plots rule the box office.  Sedona balances on the line between reality and wish fulfillment, truth and sappy optimism, and, overall, I think it keeps its balance relatively well.

Chaos theory and Quantum Physics have told us for decades that reality, at its base, is chaotic, random, unpredictable—a tissue of coincidences. Our days often seem organized by nothing more than clocks telling us where to be next. More than that: people suddenly get ripped out of our lives, jobs and marriages crumble, people get caught in the wrong place at the wrong time all the time, and for no apparent reason.  That’s why, even if we have to slug down a big draught of sap, we hunger, secretly or openly, for something neat, something beyond coincidence.  A good poem, Robert Frost said, is “a temporary truce with chaos.”

I’ve grown less dismissive of Sedona’s loopiness over the years, knowing how sincerely so many believe in auras, crystals, past lives.  Walking its stunning landscapes, I often catch myself thinking, I see why people feel spirits roaming here and vortexes doing whatever they do. But it’s really Sedona’s intense beauty that gives rise to the idea that there are no coincidences.  One key component of anything we call beautiful must be a sense that somehow everything fits together perfectly, so much so that even coincidences don’t seem accidental.  It’s tough to plot the beautiful without getting saccharine, and capturing beauty on any kind of camera will always be a dicey, difficult job.  And maybe Sedona is too much a special case.  Many moments in our lives just aren’t all that beautiful, just as most places aren’t Sedona—unless you’re one of those that insists that everything is beautiful in its own way.  I suppose at some high-up level that could be true, but people walking around up there are often humming some pretty pollyanna songs and wearing some strong, rose-colored glasses.

(2011. Dir. Tommy Stovall. NR. I say, 2.5 stars.)

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“Neckties”

 

 

 

 

for Raja Rao

 

A thousand years old at birth, he kicked up
the dust of Vedic sages wherever he walked.
The molecules of air they had exhaled swarmed
to him like gnats. He breathed them in and out,
in and out, and the stories he wrote turned
readers into ghosts.

Last evening it started when a character quoted Kabir:
“The road to the City of Love is hard, brother, it’s hard.
Take care, take care, as you walk along it.” Then
a few pages on as he chanted Shankara’s “Vishwam in
darpandrishya mananagarii”—“Like a city seen in a
mirror is the Universe, seen

Within oneself, but seemingly of Maya born”—I was gone.
My hands clutching the book went transparent,
my socks wrapped phantom feet.  And this morning,
staring into a dim mirror, spooked by a spirit face creased
with traces of my own life, I suddenly realize I have forgotten
how to tie my necktie.

__________

For sure, it was not an easy knot, but a Double Windsor,
its triangularities superior for concealing gaps.
Soon after crossing right side over left, my hands begin
fumbling hopelessly.

__________

So!  Gandhi, Aurobindo, ALL!  They fumbled this knot too!
Hurray Nehru jackets!  Hurray dhotis!  All, All resistances
sartorial against that Old Foreign Rule:  Everyone!  Out!
Of!  The!  Water!  (And!  Hand over!  That salt!)  No one!
Admitted!  On the road!  Of love!   Without neckties!
Which have!  Sewn in!  On their inner!  Folds!  Instructions!
For tying!     The Great!    Double!    Windsor!

 

Richard R. Guzman

This poem originally appeared in different form in The Journal of Indian Writing in English. Go here for a list of poems and poetry commentary on this site.

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